Zoning out

Tues (PM) - 4 + Gym (total miles for day = 12)
Wed - 12
Thurs - OFF

Sometimes I completely zone out when I run. Usually it's on longer solo efforts when I just get wrapped up in my thoughts and then all of a sudden i snap out of it and look around and its like, whoa, I haven't even stepped out of my head for 20 minutes.

On my run on wednesday I hit up some trails I rarely take and just got lost in the silence and peace of the lagoon. I've entered my second year in San Diego (I don't really count myself as living here until I started working on October...Bar studying was a world unto its own) and I'm experiencing sensations and patterns that were new to me last year, now with a sense of familiarity. Leaving the office after dark, christmas sneaking up on us even though its still the beginning of november, the cool mornings forcing me to actually bust out the long sleeved shirts for my run, races I've run before, holiday traditions come once again, recipes I'm whipping up again...Many of these things I experienced as a high schooler or on my breaks home from school, but it's different now that I live here as an adult. My life is so different than it was, even from a few years ago coming home from law school. I've taken the last year to decide what makes me happy, what my priorities are and who I really am now that I'm here and decided to set up camp without any ambition to leave in the near future.

I've learned and experienced a lot in this past year. I've gone from desperation over not being able to do my true passion to not only running further and more miles than I ever have but also to joining an amazing team that I only daydreamed of joining when I first moved here. I've found an apartment that fits me so perfectly it feels as comfortable as a broken in college hoodie. I've learned more in my profession and even may have found some confidence in that intimidating field. I've been able to consistently spend quality time with family, specifically been able to see my mom consistently for the first time in my adult life. I somehow managed to find an amazing group of friends that keeps growing as the months roll by. Meanwhile I've managed to see most of my closest friends from outside San Diego at least once over the course of this year. And I've learned that sometimes its when you aren't looking that something completely wonderful to finds its way into your life.

A whole year has gone by and while I don't necessarily know what I want or where I'm going, if the next year brings only half the excitement and happiness that this last year has brought, I have a lot to look forward to.

And THAT is how a 12 mile run can go by in what feels like a few minutes.